My entire life, I have always worked hard and would end up accumulating money that I never made time to spend. In a way, I almost hoarded money as a sign to myself that I was worthy because I had x amount of dollars in the bank. One thing I noticed after I got my first 9 to 5 was that I was just spinning my wheels. I’d always tell myself I’d go on vacation when I had a certain amount of money, but when I achieved it, I’d just keep increasing the amount I needed to have before I felt worthy of a vacation. It was a vicious cycle and I ended up burning myself out.
Finally, I spent money on myself, but it wasn’t on a lavish vacation or material, but on a personal development course and a business coach that totally changed my perspective on life. It may have taken me over 20 years to discover, but it was well worth it.
About a month after starting the course, I quit my job. It made me realize that the job I was doing wasn’t serving me and the quality of the work I was producing wasn’t serving the company. I realized my purpose was to be part of something bigger than myself and I owed it to myself to find that. So I kept investing in emotional intelligence trainings to do just that.
I read books about people whom I admired and I slowed down to connect with myself to get clear on my vision. Investing in all of those workshops, but more importantly, in myself, has been the best thing I have every done for my career and my life. After all, it’s a lot easier to hustle for the things that light you up, rather than hustling for someone else’s dream.
Now, the workaholic in me hasn’t ever really left, so I am still up against similar things. However, I can now easily identify that I am avoiding planning a vacation (and I LOVE to travel) out of fear that I will be taking time off from work, which means a loss of funds. What I keep reminding myself of, though, especially on the days when motivation feels like a struggle, is that taking time off from my work won’t be pushing me back, rather, launching me forward. It’s an opportunity to reset, refresh, and reinvigorate myself with creativity.
My challenge for you this week is to invest in yourself. It doesn’t have to be something huge; it could be as simple as a new book, or taking yourself out to dinner, or going to the beach and listening to the wave crash on the shore. Something you enjoy that gives you the opportunity to hit the reset button. We are meant to love our lives and that means honoring ourselves, every day.